Column 1
The framework, the configuration is most unstable. Just one
electron is to be given out to attain stability. They are alkali
metals - very reative and very unstable. Also, last electron is
very loosely held and it is not so much within the attractive forces of
the necleus.
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The framework is so completely unstable, it cannot be without the 'U'.
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'I' comes from 'U'.
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Column 2
The frame work is still very dependent, but the alkaline earth metals
are not as unstable as the alkali metals. Their valence electrons
are held by the nuceus with much more force.
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The framework is still very dependent on the 'U'.
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'I' depends upon 'U'.
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Column 3
Which? What? When? How? All the doubts.
The first ray of independence.
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I must have my own framework.
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"Can 'I'? Will 'I'? What? Which?
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Column 4
The framework begins to be assembled, but with the first defficulty comes the wort of doubts and nothing is built.
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The fraemwork begins to be assembled.
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"Maybe. Maybe not."
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Column 5
The entire plan of the framework is ready - the fremework is not
exactly built to take up the forces of 'U', but it is a ground plan.
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The ground plan of the framework is ready.
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"I think I must, but I can't".
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Column 6
The first time the fremework is erected -ready to face the force.
It's a very naive challenge to the 'U' at the moment. It's a very
naive framework at the moment - nevertheless it stands.
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The first tiem that the naive framework is errected.
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"Yes I can."
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Column 7
After the naive challenge, the 'I' recognizes that there is a long way
ahead for the framework to really stand up to the 'U'. Here the
'I' imbibes and the framework takes in more and more.
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The fremework is being added upon -built more and more to face the storm.
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" I collect."
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Column 8
After imbibing, the 'I' is now full. It feels it can now stand up
to the 'U', but the 'U' is still stronger. The storm is much
stronger and the 'I' forces itself to stand up to the 'U'.
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The framework has been prepared enough.
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"Of course I will."
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Column 9
"If only I' - they doubt just a little, but it can be the worst blunder.
The 'I' is even better equipped now. It is over-enthusiastic and
it has its last tinge fo doubt. But here the smallest error can
feel like a blunder, because it is just a few inches from the
peak. Also there is too much force and energy here - an
impulsiveness may also arise due to this intense enthusiasm and
'just-there' feeling.
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The framework is even more tough.
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"If only I..."
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Column 10
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The framework is at it's best.
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"Yes I am".
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Column 11
The framework must take every storm the way it did in the past.
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The framework is slowly losing its grip and control in the face of threat.
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"I must keep up."
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Column 12
The framework finds it so difficult to keep up that every little thing,
even the slightest of breezes, is perceived as a threat or attack.
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The framework is in state of constant threat.
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"I love to, but it is getting too much."
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Column 13
Now the framework cannot keep it up. it stands there rigid and
firm. It makes not effort -neither the intense effort of column
11 nor the repetitive pushing of colunm 12.
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The framework stands rigid and firm -it cannot keep it up.
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"I stand firm, but deep within I know I can't."
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Column 14
The first sign of erosion of the framework. It cannot even stand
firm on its own in the face of a storm. it just stands - not eve
firmly, just a monumnet, a memory of the past.
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The first sign of erosion of the framework.
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"I stand neither rigid nor firm. I am weak. I just give up."
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Column 15
The 'U' is very threatening as 'I' crumbles completely. Almost fatal.
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The framework is now crumbling down for everyone to see.
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"I am becoming very, very apprehensive, suspicious and suicidal - something- something that can prevent this fall."
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Column 16
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The framework is all falling apart and it does not even need a storm.
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'I am too incapacitated, to lazy. I cannot preveint this fall now. I accept my fall."
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Column 17
Here, the instabiltiy is to the maxium. Where column one was
incomplete without the 'U', here there is total disintegration, so that
'I' again does not exist in the face of the 'U' anymore.
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The framework is unstable to the maximum -total disintegration.
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"I am now completely not there in the face of 'U'. I have eroded and I am finished. I am no more."
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Column 18
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